It begin with a twitch in my eye.
The twitch unraveled a nerve
Signaling shocks through my body.
I was struggling to gain control.
Cold and lonely nights.
Ease my pain.
Please, just take it away!
It had me searching for the quickest remedy
The search for relief was on.
So, I found a dealer.
He supplied to my delight
There I was popping pills day and night
If I thought I’d lost control before
My mind was really gone
In and out
Boom…again I’d pass out
Was I in a dream or reality?
Does it really matter?
At least I don’t feel the pain, right?
Don’t shake or awake me.
Or you will unleash a beast
Chained to the bitterness of her past
I’m hoping this pain killer will last
I wonder why they call it pain killer?
Because eventually it wears off
And I’m back at square one
Thankful for the relief, but I need a stronger dose
These pills ain’t doing it for me no mo’
Someone tell me when my search is done.
I keep popping pills for my pain.
I don’t just want it eased, but I want it dead.
An eternal numb.
I pop pills, but I’m still depressed.
I pop pills, but I’m still stressed.
I pop pills, but I’m still hungry.
I pop pills, yet I’m still lonely.
What’s the use in these things?
Sick of disappointment and frustration
Despite my desire to change
I’m battling this killer craving to go back to my old ways
At this point I’m willing to try the untested.
This new thing I’m trying now
Heard it’s not really new.
It’s an old practice of medicine
Known to change minds and save souls
Scientists say you can’t test it
Latest and ancient testimonies reveals that it works
But I hear there is a process.
Now, why do I want that?
Give me what’s quick and easy.
Then again, quick and easy is what got me here.
The first day I took a small dose.
Next day, I was hooked.
Nearly had me in a choke hold.
It’s like a cool ointment to an open wound.
The first reaction is a sting and burn,
Eventually the discomfort settles
And the healing begins.
Instead of popping pills
I now pop words of life
This word tells me about Jesus Christ
He conquered ALL
Including death, hell, and the grave.
To help me endure the hurt
If I live by the words
In the end
I get a great reward